hopes..

3rd december2010

when every teachers try to help u and ur friends cheer u, u feel happy,warm and caring...but in the end,unwillingly...u bring the bad results for them....this kind of feeling,who will ever understand?? i am maybe....

after my physic paper,i was totally gived up hope....i scored 34/50 in my paper 1....paper 2 i was quite not sure...but paper 3 i was pretty confident that i would score between 30-35/40 marks..... my mother always tell me that it is fine that i din get any A,but make sure i never fail.... i knew she was trying to comfort me by not giving me pressure....and then...life is still going on.... I have a tuition teacher..everyone has too and some don't... my teacher told me that i will get A- for my physic.... but after i saw the score of my paper 1, i was devastated....thinking of i'm going to let him down....and the whole physic class get A except me a little hopeless guy...

so do u guys understand the feeling?? i lost my study mood...and if i really cant get A,how am i going to face my teacher??.... Many of my friends support me and keep telling me that i shouldn't has any problem... The truth is i'm going to let them down too....when the day the result has announced,the 1st moment that i will walk out from the hall with what kind of emotion??..sad?happy?....and later on,ringing will be heard...And i will be busy replying every ppl who asking about my results...If i pass with flying colour, i will talk loudly to them to show them that my effort is worth....if i fail,i will also talk loudly to ignore them by not telling them the result.....

why is it so suffer to be a human that i don't really wanna be? when u r born,u start learning from kindergarden to primary school....then study n having exam in the secondary school..later get degree from college....after that,u start working then u marry...or some continue studying...some maybe give up everything.... i just wanna to be an extraordinary guy...i want to do something different.... i wanna to do something that is meaningful and bring honour to the country and family... i don't want to sit down and wait miracle happens...the reason of sitting at home for studying whole day is just to sit for 2 hours exam only????

If good result can please and relief the burden of my family,
i am willing to fight from the beginning till the end....

-by me

not in good temper

2nd November
xx i lost my temper today....i was impatient to talk with friends.....is it the pressure from the exam??... but this could not be used as an excuse to hiding my unruly behavior lo...

xx today the physics paper.... if u say difficult,but is not difficult... If u say easier,but i'm quite ok for it ....One thing i know is i ll surely score A in paper3....came out ticker tape experiment....hahaha.... the paper 2 i really ....dont know....leave to the God...hahahaha... by the way,tonight i'm not going to study.... reflexing the moment that i treated my friend this morning...

xx maybe i was too tired...but erm..... Let's take a nap.... will leave it tomorrow to decide...

“The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible.”

- Arthur C. Clarke

A child came crying to his mother and complained that he has severe stomach-ache. She told him, “It is because your belly is empty. Come and have some food.” The child obeyed.

The next day the mother had a heavy head ache. The child consoled her, saying innocently, “Mommy, it is because your head is empty!”

On another occasion, the curious child asked his mother, “Mommy, why are some of your hairs turning grey?” She tried to use this occasion to reform him. “It is because of you, dear. Every bad action of yours will turn one of my hairs grey!” The child replied innocently, “Now I know why your mother has only grey hairs on her head.”

I want straight As...wuwuwuw

No....!! It's not going to happen.....I...fail

where's my light?

What's wrong with me now??
there is darkness hiding inside of my heart...
the light of my heart is going to......... distinguish

Where is the determination??
where is my stronger heart??...
there's no more heroes exist in my heart....

why is it hardly to be the person that i wanna to be?
when will i stop or
how to save myself???

I need someone to save me....
heroes sometimes need to be saved,
especially i'm not the hero....

Destiny is not created by someone,
but you yourself choose to be....

There are choices...
choices to keep going
or u quit

choice doesn't allow you to look back again
But keep going and don't stop trying...

Its not too hard....
lights everywhere....hopes everywhere..
just don't give up....

rain rain

"Is it going to rain all day long?" the fairy said. Sunny wasn’t feeling too sunny at this moment. She wanted to fly around Periwinkle Glen and play with all her friends, Mouse, Grasshopper and Dragonfly, but right now, all she could do was sit under the puffy brown mushroom and wait until the raindrops stopped falling. Butterfly sat next to her, trying not to get her wings wet. Sunny’s chin lay in her hand and a pout decorated her face. "I want it to stop raining. I never want it to rain again!" Butterfly nodded her head and agreed.

After a while the rain stopped. Drops of rain dripped from every leaf on every branch of every tree. They dripped from the flower petals and from the prickly purple thistle. The animals of the meadow came out of their homes to sip the water. Frog jumped into a puddle and splashed water all over a tall, peach-colored iris. Ladybug flew from raindrop to raindrop, looking at her reflection and giggling. Squirrel stood under the leaves and caught the drops in his mouth. Sunny didn’t notice any of it. She and Butterfly climbed out from under the mushroom. They shook their wings off and Sunny smiled when she felt the sun’s warmth on her face. "This is much better. The sky is blue, the sun is out and there’s no rain!"

Day after day Sunny and Butterfly played in the meadow. They played leapfrog; they flew between the tree trunks and threw soft, fluffy clover balls at each other. It didn’t rain and both of them were very happy. After a while Sunny began to notice something. Instead of being bright yellow like her dress, the sunflowers were nodding and turning brown. The blue morning glories were shriveling up. The stream that runs through the glen got smaller and didn’t flow as fast and the tall grasses were yellowing.

One day she was walking through the grass and heard soft whimpers. She parted the grass and saw that it was Mouse. "What’s the matter, Mouse?" she asked. Butterfly flew down to the ground and landed next to them. She was concerned too. Mouse started to cry and told Sunny how her children were thirsty and there was no water. Sunny told her to take them to the stream and get them a drink.

No matter where she went in Periwinkle Glen, all the animals seemed to be sad. Some were crying and others were lying down, too thirsty to move. "Butterfly, all the animals in the meadow are thirsty. I want the sunflowers to be yellow. I want the violets to be purple and the roses to be red. Everything is turning brown, even the grass. We need some rain!" Butterfly nodded her head. "Oh, Butterfly. I wished that it would never rain again, but I see that we do need the rain so that the flowers will grow and the animals can have drinks. The stream needs to be full so that it will flow through the meadow. The deer and bears and raccoons all need to drink from it. I want it to rain again, Butterfly," she sighed.

Sunny didn’t sleep well that night. She couldn’t stop thinking about poor Mouse and how sad she was or how brown the leaves were turning on the oak tree. In the morning, when dawn came, it began to rain. It rained and it rained. All day long it rained. Sunny was so happy. Butterfly was so happy. Mouse and Ladybug were happy. Squirrel was happy and so was Raccoon. The sunflowers became a brighter yellow than Sunny had ever seen them. The stream filled with cool water and flowed quickly through the meadow. The leaves turned green and stood straight up, reaching for the raindrops, drinking them all in. "This is much better. Periwinkle Glen needs water. I’m thankful for the rain," she laughed. She and Butterfly chased each other through the wet meadow. Drops drizzled in her eyes and got her pretty red hair wet. Her dress got soaking wet too, but Sunny was happy. Everyone in the meadow was happy.