"A View from the Zoo"

"A View from the Zoo", Gary Richmond describes how a newborn giraffe learns its first lesson.

The mother giraffe lowers her head long enough to take a quick look. Then she positions herself directly over her calf. She waits for about a minute, and then she does the most unreasonable thing. She swings her long, pendulous leg outward and kicks her baby, so that it is sent sprawling head over heels.

When it doesn't get up, the violent process is repeated over and over again. The struggle to rise is momentous. As the baby calf grows tired, the mother kicks it again to stimulate its efforts. Finally, the calf stands for the first time on its wobbly legs.

Then the mother giraffe does the most remarkable thing. She kicks it off its feet again. Why? She wants it to remember how it got up. In the wild, baby giraffes must be able to get up as quickly as possible to stay with the herd, where there is safety. Lions, hyenas, leopards, and wild hunting dogs all enjoy young giraffes, and they'd get it too, if the mother didn't teach her calf to get up quickly and get with it.

right or wrong?

What it is all about life??? I feel so hatred! I feel so tired and annoying .... If i can choose, i choose i have never exist in this world.. What have happened in this afternoon,i know it was a small matter, but i know that a small reaction that will sooner result a big different in the future.

We were preparing for the (H.E) assignment and everytime only the 3 of us were doing and he didn't.. He never ask,never care and never touch... All he has to do is just sitting at home and wait for the marks... That is his definition of teamwork... so far he only attended the meeting for ----one time. after we had completed the assignment, i went to the printing shop to print out the assignment due to no printer in my house. Then the assignment caused me rm10. So i decided to share the payment with my team. 3 of us paid rm2. And i charged him double plus the binding,so overall i charged him rm5. Since he has never helped, then it is fair that he pays double for the assignment. I know this is not right,but i have to do so. Atleast he can help out with the money. But he seemed like not willing to pay it. And dare to push all the responsibility to us.... And accused us that everytime we didn't inform him about the meeting. Like we must have the duty of informing him to go to meeting. Won't u ask har????? Have u ever care for the assignment? Atleast help us some typing....or help us do the kandungan,pendahuluan or kesimpulan... HAve u ever ask?? Have u???? Then i kept quarrel with him with all the funny words come out.... the ppl around stared at us, and i shut the door loudly and straight walked away.Then i sms him after i reached home. " It is fine that u dun wan to cooperate and pay. Now i'm giving u the right thing to choose,either u pay me,or we meet Muthu(lecturer). Both are from chung hwa,dun sia sui chung hwa ppl... If u feel i'm wrong to charge u double,then ma pay me rm2 lo.... If u are gentleman, then pay rm2 lo.It is fine for me since u feel right. Friendly speaking,my team, no ppl support u 1...Right or wrong is up to u."

Actually I wanna tell Muthu about this situation. Atleast he will get his punishment due to his mistakes. I rather he hates me and change it than he hurts other ppl in the future. In this situation,both of us are wrong. and neighter of us is right.From another side, If i didn't charge him double,maybe the conflict will never exist. If i as a group leader, has that duty to always inform him for the meeting, then maybe the conflict will never happen. Either i push all the responsibility to him or i carry all the responsibility....

本是同班的，相煎何太及？ 不气又不行，气他费精力。。 粗话乱处撒，像小便那

样撒，虽然他潇洒，但是我不傻。

AIM

Go Green, Live Green!!! we have 3R.... re- use, re-duce, re- cycle

Questions, Answers!!!! we have 3 R also... Re-vise, Re-call, Re-view

Don't view her page.....don't....!!! control..... she is chatting with another guy....... i know... stop envying ... she's not belongs to mine alrdy....

当你发现你爱的人对你不再留恋的时候，这就证明了他／她已经开始放弃了…那你也应该放手了吧…

I'm totally agree at the above sentence..... When you gave up,i must let it go.... She did not want to have any special relationship with me....

Whatever...... as long as u feel happy

不想你了。不在乎你了。。不爱你了。放弃了

一天晚上，四月18号。。

我已经不想你了

你的照片在我电话中，我未曾散除。 我时常拿来看看你，回忆你。

我的确不想你了

我常在fb等你上线，我常检查电话，看看最后一封信息是否有回复到你。

我已经不在乎你了

我常注意你的fb是否有更新，看看你跟谁聊，可能是想看是不是跟别的男生聊天吧。。

我的确不在乎你了

你fb上的照片，我想放个赞，想要引起你的注意。我故意跟很多漂亮的女生交谈，想看看你对我的反应。。

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我不爱你了。。

这次我是认真了

我违反了我的原则，

谈了恋爱那么多次那么多年，

我违反了我一路来的原则。

“我不喜欢等待。我不会浪费时间在一个不爱我的人身上.如果她不爱我了，我也会自动放弃了。当你还爱我的时候，我是不会离开你的。 我不在乎曾经拥有，我在乎的是天长地久。一段恋情若是结束了，就是结束了，无需再提”

但，

今天我确违反了。。。

我想她，

我在乎她，

我还爱她。。

不过她已经不爱我了。。

我变成不再是以前的我了。

"你不知道的事"这首歌以成为我对你的挂念及倾诉了..

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我放弃了...

你永远都看不到我在想什么,我在写什么..

因为...

我只会在这里叙述我的心情

你不会知道我多么的想你,

你不会知道我天天背负着承重的心情..

我放弃你了...我会好好过,

放心吧...

因为多的是你不知道的事......

It's not too simple

hoping to have a good results in spm,but in the end i failed to achieve what I want.. I couldn't get to F6,and I cant fulfilled my dreams... It is not too easy get score a subject....I mean me....MYSELF alright?? Although many people who get straight As will disagree. But listen,only that straight As guys will disagree.... The people like me,who had put much effort to face it..... I know my standard,no more blaming..

My class will start at 3rd of May,i will close my facebook and only play on saturday and sunday ....My mom has to pay rm10000 for the diploma this coming 2 years.... If i cant pass,her money will be wasted.... So I need to change....I mean my attitude....and my habits . I have been finding all the excuses for not changing myself.... Because when you are 100% focusing on your studies, you cannot fallen in love with anyone.... Maybe someone will disagree,they said as long as you can manage your study time well... Allow me to refute, how many people in this world will actually can make it??? minority??that is the problem.... And i'm not belongs to them.... If my another half is mature enough,know when and what is the time for us to be together and the time for studying together....Then my life is perfect... Life is not as simple as you think... Is it so easy to find someone who really suits to you?? It's not too simple...

Life is simple,It's just not too easy.... This is the background of my blog...Sometimes I want to laugh but i have to sigh.... Endure ,endure and endure......Don't give up though the pace seems slow...

我的第一步

2011 到了。。。我的生活依然没改变。。。。反正没有人来看我的blog，我就随着我的心意去叙述 我近来的心情。。。但我还是会怕人家偷看我的blog...哈哈哈。。。无妨啦。。。这无名小翠的地方没人观看的。。 哪像其他人在facebook介绍他们的blog..展现他们的照片。。哈哈哈

归入正题，我不埋怨谁也不埋怨天。。。我只埋怨我自己为什么那么的直？？。。难听一点就是笨！ 读书已经不是那么有才华了再加上没有远见的思想！ 我真的很不明白我所决定的一切是错误的，永远都是别人的对。 之前我不想读学院,是因为我不想浪费妈妈的钱。。供哥哥的学费，我已经眼睛看妈妈怎样辛苦了。。。。读F6 至少可以减轻许多负担，还可以让我大显身手，拼实力考入大学。。。还可以陪battery。一箭双雕....但妈妈并不是那么想的。。。。她很清楚我的程度的，凡是都有万一，一旦我考不进大学。。。我就足足浪费两年！ 她宁远现在我恨她，也不让将来来恨她。。。 一切都以我的前途来着想...浪费钱是一定的！ 但只要熬过那五年。拿到文凭做工，再还钱给妈妈。。。那就等于没有欠或浪费了。。从这里看来，谁比较理智？？？感到做人惭愧

毕业了，在家嫌着没事做就去做part time 餐厅。刚开始曾想一次过做到3月去直到成绩出炉。。就从餐厅经理跟我谈薪水的那一刻起，这里我正要阐述我的笨蛋想法。。。如果是part time ，工作一个小时rm5，早上到晚上加起来一天可能赚rm55。 如果做长久工，如果 不算利息的话，一个月的薪水只赚rm600 而已。。。。然而，我尽然去答应？？？。。。。 当 这件事让妈妈知道后，就足足被她骂了一顿。。。她说我为什么那么的笨？？。。。 如果做长工，就等于一天的工作站12个小时才rm20....那你说，我笨吗？？。。 还好我推辞了经理，只做了一些散工而已...至少至今，一个月我捱了不少。。。赚了rm1000 为自己的零用钱。。。。我很不明白，难道我根本没有自己主宰的命运吗？？？一辈子都得靠妈妈的理智而生活？？？当她不在了，我得靠谁了？？？。。。。 我靠自己都已经不行了，还整天被人家骂我直，骂我笨。。。上天，难道我的命运就此注定一辈子这样蠢吗？？？

虽然在等着成绩的期间，我见识了人心黑暗的一面。。。。但这只是社会中的小部分。。。并没有什么可以称得上“见识”。。。 在餐厅里，各工作人员都是互相利用。。。早上的管理人员与晚上的管理员都是分派的。。。多数里面的工作人员或厨师都是文盲或是没有教育的。。。。这点不出奇。。。。但最重要的是品德。。。人的地位有差异，但人的品德是不应该有差异的。。。但在厨房里的气氛，每个人都是言语不雅，心情都是非常暴躁的。。他们根本不能和你平心静气的说话，只要稍微开口就满天三字经。 不光是他们，连常工的男男女女都是如此。。。人是没有所谓的十全十美，只有不断的改善朝着你要的标准。 在餐厅里，没有所谓的公正。只要一人做了小小的错，责任肯定推到我们做散工的份上。我们没有任何的理由狡辩，唯有默默的接受。 我相信这也是社会中到处都会看到的事实，我只不过是一条毛毛虫而已。。哈哈哈 。。。。

有一位职员，对我甚是关心。。。只不过嘴巴只是爱讲人而已，心地可是好。 常常保护我，教我如何回避那些只会催我做他们的份量，而自己却在那里偷懒。。。 那位职员曾问我打算做长工吗？我说不是。 她对我说：“这是没有前途的。。” 这句话的含义很深，开始明白教育的重要性。。。虽然不是说厨师不好，一个餐厅主要的成败不在于管理人员，而是一位经验的厨师。没有他们，餐厅是无法立足的。 但换是我，我可不想一辈子都在呆在厨房里不见天日吧。。虽然这是一种人人都敬佩的才艺，一家人的幸福就是靠美食佳肴而带来的。。 我很清楚我不是这一行的人。。 在餐厅里，很少会听到人家对我的称赞，反而被骂的统统都是同一句：“你为什么那么笨？？头脑不会转吗？？”