I need strength!!!! oh goshh....i lost it.......

"A View from the Zoo"

"A View from the Zoo", Gary Richmond describes how a newborn giraffe learns its first lesson.

The mother giraffe lowers her head long enough to take a quick look. Then she positions herself directly over her calf. She waits for about a minute, and then she does the most unreasonable thing. She swings her long, pendulous leg outward and kicks her baby, so that it is sent sprawling head over heels.

When it doesn't get up, the violent process is repeated over and over again. The struggle to rise is momentous. As the baby calf grows tired, the mother kicks it again to stimulate its efforts. Finally, the calf stands for the first time on its wobbly legs.

Then the mother giraffe does the most remarkable thing. She kicks it off its feet again. Why? She wants it to remember how it got up. In the wild, baby giraffes must be able to get up as quickly as possible to stay with the herd, where there is safety. Lions, hyenas, leopards, and wild hunting dogs all enjoy young giraffes, and they'd get it too, if the mother didn't teach her calf to get up quickly and get with it.

right or wrong?

What it is all about life??? I feel so hatred! I feel so tired and annoying .... If i can choose, i choose i have never exist in this world.. What have happened in this afternoon,i know it was a small matter, but i know that a small reaction that will sooner result a big different in the future.

We were preparing for the (H.E) assignment and everytime only the 3 of us were doing and he didn't.. He never ask,never care and never touch... All he has to do is just sitting at home and wait for the marks... That is his definition of teamwork... so far he only attended the meeting for ----one time. after we had completed the assignment, i went to the printing shop to print out the assignment due to no printer in my house. Then the assignment caused me rm10. So i decided to share the payment with my team. 3 of us paid rm2. And i charged him double plus the binding,so overall i charged him rm5. Since he has never helped, then it is fair that he pays double for the assignment. I know this is not right,but i have to do so. Atleast he can help out with the money. But he seemed like not willing to pay it. And dare to push all the responsibility to us.... And accused us that everytime we didn't inform him about the meeting. Like we must have the duty of informing him to go to meeting. Won't u ask har????? Have u ever care for the assignment? Atleast help us some typing....or help us do the kandungan,pendahuluan or kesimpulan... HAve u ever ask?? Have u???? Then i kept quarrel with him with all the funny words come out.... the ppl around stared at us, and i shut the door loudly and straight walked away.Then i sms him after i reached home. " It is fine that u dun wan to cooperate and pay. Now i'm giving u the right thing to choose,either u pay me,or we meet Muthu(lecturer). Both are from chung hwa,dun sia sui chung hwa ppl... If u feel i'm wrong to charge u double,then ma pay me rm2 lo.... If u are gentleman, then pay rm2 lo.It is fine for me since u feel right. Friendly speaking,my team, no ppl support u 1...Right or wrong is up to u."

Actually I wanna tell Muthu about this situation. Atleast he will get his punishment due to his mistakes. I rather he hates me and change it than he hurts other ppl in the future. In this situation,both of us are wrong. and neighter of us is right.From another side, If i didn't charge him double,maybe the conflict will never exist. If i as a group leader, has that duty to always inform him for the meeting, then maybe the conflict will never happen. Either i push all the responsibility to him or i carry all the responsibility....

本是同班的，相煎何太及？ 不气又不行，气他费精力。。 粗话乱处撒，像小便那

样撒，虽然他潇洒，但是我不傻。

AIM

Go Green, Live Green!!! we have 3R.... re- use, re-duce, re- cycle

Questions, Answers!!!! we have 3 R also... Re-vise, Re-call, Re-view

Don't view her page.....don't....!!! control..... she is chatting with another guy....... i know... stop envying ... she's not belongs to mine alrdy....

当你发现你爱的人对你不再留恋的时候，这就证明了他／她已经开始放弃了…那你也应该放手了吧…

I'm totally agree at the above sentence..... When you gave up,i must let it go.... She did not want to have any special relationship with me....

Whatever...... as long as u feel happy

不想你了。不在乎你了。。不爱你了。放弃了

一天晚上，四月18号。。

我已经不想你了

你的照片在我电话中，我未曾散除。 我时常拿来看看你，回忆你。

我的确不想你了

我常在fb等你上线，我常检查电话，看看最后一封信息是否有回复到你。

我已经不在乎你了

我常注意你的fb是否有更新，看看你跟谁聊，可能是想看是不是跟别的男生聊天吧。。

我的确不在乎你了

你fb上的照片，我想放个赞，想要引起你的注意。我故意跟很多漂亮的女生交谈，想看看你对我的反应。。

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我不爱你了。。

这次我是认真了

我违反了我的原则，

谈了恋爱那么多次那么多年，

我违反了我一路来的原则。

“我不喜欢等待。我不会浪费时间在一个不爱我的人身上.如果她不爱我了，我也会自动放弃了。当你还爱我的时候，我是不会离开你的。 我不在乎曾经拥有，我在乎的是天长地久。一段恋情若是结束了，就是结束了，无需再提”

但，

今天我确违反了。。。

我想她，

我在乎她，

我还爱她。。

不过她已经不爱我了。。

我变成不再是以前的我了。

"你不知道的事"这首歌以成为我对你的挂念及倾诉了..

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我放弃了...

你永远都看不到我在想什么,我在写什么..

因为...

我只会在这里叙述我的心情

你不会知道我多么的想你,

你不会知道我天天背负着承重的心情..

我放弃你了...我会好好过,

放心吧...

因为多的是你不知道的事......

It's not too simple

hoping to have a good results in spm,but in the end i failed to achieve what I want.. I couldn't get to F6,and I cant fulfilled my dreams... It is not too easy get score a subject....I mean me....MYSELF alright?? Although many people who get straight As will disagree. But listen,only that straight As guys will disagree.... The people like me,who had put much effort to face it..... I know my standard,no more blaming..

My class will start at 3rd of May,i will close my facebook and only play on saturday and sunday ....My mom has to pay rm10000 for the diploma this coming 2 years.... If i cant pass,her money will be wasted.... So I need to change....I mean my attitude....and my habits . I have been finding all the excuses for not changing myself.... Because when you are 100% focusing on your studies, you cannot fallen in love with anyone.... Maybe someone will disagree,they said as long as you can manage your study time well... Allow me to refute, how many people in this world will actually can make it??? minority??that is the problem.... And i'm not belongs to them.... If my another half is mature enough,know when and what is the time for us to be together and the time for studying together....Then my life is perfect... Life is not as simple as you think... Is it so easy to find someone who really suits to you?? It's not too simple...

Life is simple,It's just not too easy.... This is the background of my blog...Sometimes I want to laugh but i have to sigh.... Endure ,endure and endure......Don't give up though the pace seems slow...